3/12/2004 06:18:00 PM|||Andrew|||Why do I have to live like this? Why can't I be normal, lead a normal life? Why don't I have parents, a family that I can go back to, rather than have them be thousands of miles away from me? Why can't I do what everyone else does over spring break, go back to their families to their old high school friends. My friends are swept away across the globe, few of which even remember me or would care to notice. And why do I even care about these things? A year ago I would have been delighted to have over a week with no obligations, with no worries, no roommate, no nothing to do other than sit around, play computer games, watch tv, or whatever. Why is it that none of this satisfies, none of it even comes close. All I can think about are people I miss being with. What is happening to me.

I'm falling into despair andnothinghelps|||107914430924620001|||